grief – Down the Rabbit Hole

Phoebe Dean was the most popular girl alive and dead.

For the last ten years, the small, claustrophobic town of West Wilmer has been struggling to understand one thing: Why did it take young Grant Dean twenty-seven minutes to call for help on the fateful night of the car accident that took the life of his beloved sister, Phoebe?

Someone knows what really happened the night Phoebe died. Someone who is ready to tell the truth.

With Phoebe’s memorial in just three days, grief, delusion, ambition, and regret tornado together with biting gossip in a town full of people obsessed with a long-gone tragedy with four people at its heart—the caretaker, the secret girlfriend, the missing bad boy, and a former football star. Just kids back then, are forever tied together the fateful rainy night Phoebe died.

Perfect for fans of Jane Harper and Celeste Ng, Tate’s literary suspense Twenty-Seven Minutes is a gripping debut about what happens when grief becomes unbearable and dark secrets are unearthed in a hometown that is all too giddy to eat it up.

Overall Recommendation:

Twenty-Seven Minutes is not for the faint hearted, or those who do not want to fall into a pit of despair. While it tried to be a super twisty thriller, it ended up being a super slow read, filled with unlikable characters you can’t root for, all while a cloud of hopelessness permeated every page. I didn’t quite see the twist at the end coming, but at that point, I couldn’t utter much emotion for it either way. If that’s what the author wanted, then it was a success. Otherwise, please be warned.

Publication Date: January 23, 2024

I’m a huge sucker for thrillers, and from the beginning of Twenty-Seven Minutes’ synopsis, I was hooked, line and sinker. But upon opening the very first pages, something immediately felt off to me. Perhaps it was the writing style, which was disjointed and flipping across 4 characters. Or maybe it was the way each character was already being portrayed. Either way, this should’ve been my warning sign.

Spanning only the course of 3 days – which felt like a lifetime while reading it – we follow mostly Grant, Becca and June who are assumedly 3 adults in their late twenties still stuck in their old town and in the trauma they all faced on the same night a decade ago. Let me be clear. All three of these individuals are badly in need of consistent therapy. Becca claimed she went when she first survived the accident that claimed Grant’s sister’s life, but it’s clear she should’ve never stopped. Frankly, her POV probably left me with the worst feeling out of all of them. And that’s saying something because they’re ALL super messed up.

There’s definitely guilt and plenty of secrets between them all. How that would play out and explode into the public sphere was probably the only thing that kept me going at times. None of these characters were likable, although June was probably the closest one I could feel a smidge of sympathy for. But every single one of them was wrapped up in layers of grief, trauma, and addiction to unhealthy, obsessive behaviours that would make someone unsettled from only one of these POVs. There is no break regardless of who we switch to as each POV had so much to unpack. They were also unreliable narrators as you know at least one or all of them are hiding something from us, the readers. The overall result of this? Just a cloud of unsettled discomfort and despair over me outside of this book. I would definitely not recommend this for anyone who struggles with grief or feelings of despair in general. This book will only compound those feelings.

When I finally came through to the other side, the ending was partly something I should’ve seen but also not what I expected. I expected something bigger, for the fact that it ruined so many lives for so long. I suppose there are some points to be given that I didn’t see the twist right away until close to the end but a part of me feels let down. It was the only thing driving me to finish. And I can’t say I wanted to finish because it was fast paced or super suspenseful. I just like knowing the answer. The only reason this rating isn’t lower is because I did manage to finish and I did push through – a part of me was too afraid to stop reading for fear I’d never be able to pick it up again. That counts for something at least.

I’ve read my fair share of mysteries and thrillers over the years. While this could’ve been an amazing read, there was too much focus on grief and trauma to give us anything else to hold onto (or anyone healthy to read from for a reprieve). With no likable characters means no one cares what happened to them all. As this is a debut that was apparently borne of grief the author suffered herself, I can empathize this may have been therapeutic for her – but not quite so for anyone else. I can only hope any more books after this one will be a little more well-rounded, emotionally.

Thanks to Netgalley and the publisher for this copy in exchange for an honest review

4.5 star, YA

ARC Review: Stay With My Heart by Tashie Bhuiyan

December 30, 2023December 30, 2023 Andge @ Down the Rabbit Hole

From the author of Counting Down with You and A Show for Two comes a new YA contemporary about a girl who accidentally sabotages an up-and-coming local band and falls for the guitarist while secretly trying to make up for her mistake.

Liana Sarkar lives and breathes music, hoping to follow in the footsteps of her A&R coordinator father. Maybe if she succeeds, he’ll finally give her the time of day instead of drowning himself in work to distract from the grief of her mother’s passing.

When Liana accidentally sabotages an up-and-coming local band, Third Eye, she makes it her mission to steer them towards success—without them discovering her role in their setback. But as she gets closer to Third Eye, especially their enigmatic leader Skyler Moon, it becomes harder to hide the truth.

With both her heart and their futures on the line, will Liana be able to undo the damage she’s caused?

Overall Recommendation:

Stay With My Heart is full of musical references and a romances that sweeps you off your feet. Liana was a well-fleshed out protagonist to sympathize with as she embarks on this secret mission to make the band, Third Eye, into a great success. I loved the realness of her struggles, the songs she connected with, and her growing relationship with each of the boys in the band. The romance was so organic even while the impending blow up over her secrets hangs overhead. I couldn’t put this down, and Tashie has slowly secured a spot as a writer that just gets what I want in a love story.

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4.5 star, YA

Review: The Space Between Here & Now by Sarah Suk

December 11, 2023December 11, 2023 Andge @ Down the Rabbit Hole

Perfect for fans of They Both Die at the End and You’ve Reached Sam, this gripping, atmospheric YA novel follows a teen with a mysterious condition that transports her to the past when she smells certain scents linked to specific memories.

Seventeen-year-old Aimee Roh has Sensory Time Warp Syndrome, a rare condition that causes her to time travel to a moment in her life when she smells something linked to that memory. Her dad is convinced she’ll simply grow out of it if she tries hard enough, but Aimee’s fear of vanishing at random has kept her from living a normal life.

When Aimee disappears for nine hours into a memory of her estranged mom–a moment Aimee has never remembered before–she becomes distraught. Not only was this her longest disappearance yet, but the memory doesn’t match up with the story of how her mom left–at least, not the version she’s always heard from her dad.

Desperate for answers, Aimee travels to Korea, where she unravels the mystery of her memories, the truth about her mother, and the reason she keeps returning to certain moments in her life. Along the way, she realizes she’ll need to reconcile her past in order to save her present.

From acclaimed author Sarah Suk comes an aching, powerful exploration of memory, grief, and the painful silences we must overcome to discover our truest selves.

Overall Recommendation:

The Space Between Here & Now delivered a capturing story about a girl’s journey in finding her mom, and in the process, finding herself. I love the themes of grief tied into memory as Aimee tackles the abandonment from her mother years later. Mixed with Asian elements woven throughout the novel as Aimee travelled back to Korea to explore her parents’ roots, this book captivated me from the start as I too yearned to learn more about Aimee’s time warp condition and her mother’s disappearance. A definitely recommendation!

You know how smell seems to always be the most powerful thing to instantly draw you back to a particular memory? I love that, being the nostalgic person that I am, but imagine this happening physically. All the time. Aimee suffers from a rare condition, Sensory Time Warp Syndrome, that transports her back into her memories at the most inopportune times when her particular sense, smell, is triggered to an associated memory.

In the same vein as If You Could See the Sun and The Other Side of Infinity, I thought this fictional syndrome was super interesting, and it never felt like just a prop to make this book more intriguing. We dive deep into what the condition entails (little is known but it varies from person to person and dependent on the sense), the people struggling to live in a world trying to avoid particular trigger senses (how awful!), and how this impacts the relationships of those suffering from such a condition.

The characters were absolutely superb. I adored Aimee as a protagonist. She felt very real as she tried navigating this condition that seemed to be triggered more often lately. Her father didn’t want her to go to therapy or additional support groups like an Asian parent may react. So how can she tough it out by herself when being in these memories were happening more frequently and taking up longer time? Her reactions and struggles just made me empathize so much for her, and it made sense she’d yearn for her mom when her dad was just a husk in the home.

The major arcing storyline was Aimee’s search for her mom who had one day just left them when she was a kid. This took her to Korea to learn more about where her mom came from in the hopes that it’d lead her to her mom in the present day. I felt this underlying plot really kept me flipping the pages as I was just as desperate as Aimee to find her mom. Did she know more about her condition? Would she be more sympathetic than her dad? Being in Korea was a plus and I absolutely loved the setting, though it never overshadowed the emotional depth to the story.

My favourite part is definitely the way Sarah Suk looked at grief and memory. Even though her mom wasn’t dead, parental abandonment sometimes hurts more because it seems like an intentional choice to leave. With the memories Aimee kept going back to somehow connected with her mom, it’s clear the years passing hadn’t helped with closure. Things didn’t happen in the way I had anticipated it would, and in that way, I enjoyed the story more. I don’t want to give away too many details so I’ll leave it at that.

There was a romantic element to this book too, but it really played more of a supporting role. He was a great help in Korea while Aimee traced her mom’s path, but he never grew larger than the arcing story about Aimee’s past and her condition. I find it refreshing that romance can have its time and place in stories without overshadowing the main plot. It’s sometimes rarer these days as audiences grow more hungry for heavy romantic subplots.

Overall, this book touched me deeply in its exploration of memory and familial relationships. It was quite different from Sarah’s first novel, but I absolutely love the direction she’s going with and cannot wait to read more from her!