4 star, YA

ARC Review: This Place is Still Beautiful by XiXi Tian

Two sisters. A shocking racist incident. The summer that will change both of their lives forever. 

Despite having had near-identical upbringings, sisters Annalie and Margaret agree on only one thing: that they have nothing in common. Nineteen-year-old Margaret is driven, ambitious, and keenly aware of social justice issues. She couldn’t wait to leave their oppressive small-town home and take flight in New York. Meanwhile sweet, popular, seventeen-year-old Annalie couldn’t think of anything worse – she loves their town, and feels safe coasting along in its confines.

That is, until she arrives home one day to find a gut-punching racial slur painted on their garage door.

Outraged, Margaret flies home, expecting to find her family up in arms. Instead, she’s amazed to hear they want to forget about it. Their mom is worried about what it might stir up, and Annalie just wants to have a ‘normal’ summer – which Margaret is determined to ruin, apparently.

Back under each other’s skins, things between Margaret and Annalie get steadily worse – and not even the distraction of first love (for Annalie), or lost love (for Margaret) can bring them together.

Until finally, a crushing secret threatens to tear them apart forever.



**This Place is Still Beautiful comes out June 7, 2022**

Thank you Edelweiss and the publisher for this copy in exchange for an honest review.

Thereโ€™s so much I can say about This Place is Still Beautiful but Iโ€™m not sure my rambling will do it justice. This is such a gorgeous story about sisterhood and dealing with racism in different ways as an Asian growing up in America.

Older sister Margaret and Annalie are half Chinese living in a town with very few visible minorities. Near the start of the story, we jump right into the heart of the plot: someone wrote a horrible racist slur on their home. That then brings the question that both sisters have to digest and wrestle with for the rest of the story – what would you do in the aftermath of such a brutal and directed attack from people who could be your neighbors, friends or coworkers?

The girls go about it in two different ways, which I very much appreciate the author taking the time to explore. Annalie wants to forget and move on from the whole incident, and I, as an Asian Canadian, feel that would be a big struggle for me too if this were to happen to me. Obviously one would want to seek justice and retribution for such a wrong done to them. But itโ€™s another thing to be the face in the fight against racism.

And thatโ€™s exactly what Margaret does. She fights for whatโ€™s been done to their family, moving back home even though she had left town for college. While Annalie feels her sister is victimizing them, Margaret is taking control of a situation that wasnโ€™t their choice to spread awareness and teach others this is NOT acceptable.

Reading this, it makes me reflect a lot too. Which sister would I be more like? I definitely liked Margaretโ€™s side a lot more, especially when both Annalie and their mother wanted to pretend nothing happened and to not pursue more because no one would do anything about it. However, I understood why they would feel that way and itโ€™s not such an easy answer if I were in their shoes.

While this aspect on racism I felt was fleshed out very well, thereโ€™s more to this story than just this. Itโ€™s really all about the sisterhood and family dynamic. Margaret and Annalieโ€™s relationship is so fraught with tension and the inability to understand one another from their opposing viewpoints and personalities. To add to this dynamic is the typical Asian mother, but one who had to raise her daughters alone when her white husband walked out and left them all many years ago. The racism plot line surely takes up most of the story, but what connects it all is this deep exploration of family in an Asian household.

I also really loved the romance brewing in the background for Margaret and Annalie to kind of give some lighter reprieve around the heavier topics. Rajivโ€™s relationship with Margaret was my favourite. There was history there in this second chance love trope and I loved how it re-grew and matured in some way through the hardships she was facing.

I wasnโ€™t sure going into this book how Iโ€™d feel reading about Asian hate and racism. It felt a little too close to home and personal, especially with the rise of anti-Asian views in the aftermath of the pandemic. But like XiXi mentioned in her authorโ€™s note, we may not intend to talk about it yet perhaps itโ€™s exactly what we need to do instead of avoiding the very real problem at hand.

So thatโ€™s what Iโ€™m doing here. Please go read this book. Itโ€™s more than I anticipated and itโ€™s worth reading regardless if youโ€™re Asian or not.

Overall Recommendation:

This Place is Still Beautiful demonstrates how good storytelling can create such powerful messages that stays with readers. In the aftermath of an anti-Asian attack, sisters Annalie and Margaret explore what it means to be victims of racism as Asian women. I loved the honest struggle and reflection of what Iโ€™m sure Asians do feel and face unfortunately in todayโ€™s society at times. The interweaving of their specific family dynamic made the story all the more compelling as they individually and collectively grapple with the harm one action can leave behind. Itโ€™s a must read for sure.

3.5 star, nonfiction

Review: Crying in H Mart by Michelle Zauner

An unflinching, powerful memoir about growing up Korean American, losing her mother, and forging her own identity.

In this exquisite story of family, food, grief, and endurance, Michelle Zauner proves herself far more than a dazzling singer, songwriter, and guitarist. With humor and heart, she tells of growing up one of the few Asian American kids at her school in Eugene, Oregon; of struggling with her mother’s particular, high expectations of her; of a painful adolescence; of treasured months spent in her grandmother’s tiny apartment in Seoul, where she and her mother would bond, late at night, over heaping plates of food.

As she grew up, moving to the East Coast for college, finding work in the restaurant industry, and performing gigs with her fledgling band–and meeting the man who would become her husband–her Koreanness began to feel ever more distant, even as she found the life she wanted to live. It was her mother’s diagnosis of terminal cancer, when Michelle was twenty-five, that forced a reckoning with her identity and brought her to reclaim the gifts of taste, language, and history her mother had given her.

Vivacious and plainspoken, lyrical and honest, Zauner’s voice is as radiantly alive on the page as it is onstage. Rich with intimate anecdotes that will resonate widely, and complete with family photos,ย Crying in H Martย is a book to cherish, share, and reread.



My friends and I decided to do a bookclub on this book because as Asian Canadians, we thought we might relate. Each person had such a different relationship with their parents and I think that is what the core of this story came down to.

Crying in H Mart is about half-Korean half-white Michelle Zauner, as she gives her plain view on her grief and relationship with her mother and her mother’s death. The story revolves a lot around Korean food and the relationship they shared with food and the memories that created. A rough childhood with tough love quickly turns conflicted when her mother’s health takes a turn for the worse, bringing Michelle along an emotional journey where she is forced to confront her feelings for her mother.

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top ten tuesday

Top Ten Tuesday: Recent First Lines

Top Ten Tuesday was created by The Broke and the Bookish in June of 2010 and was moved to That Artsy Reader Girl in January of 2018. It was born of a love of lists, a love of books, and a desire to bring bookish friends together.


This weekโ€™s TTT is a freebie on book quotes. Iโ€™m not one to collect quotes from each book in detail, although I will highlight (in ebooks) quotes I found super interesting or well crafted for the context and story.

For that reason, Iโ€™ve chosen to highlight the first sentences of books Iโ€™ve recently finished reading or am currently reading. First lines are important as they help set the tone for drawing a reader in.

If youโ€™ve read some of these books, do you think the first line is a good representation for the rest of the book? If you havenโ€™t read these books, would you want to based on the first line?

Tell me what you think in the comments below!

1. A River Enchanted by Rebecca Ross

It was safest to cross the ocean at night, when the moon and stars shone on the water.

2. This Place is Still Beautiful by XiXi Tian

The predicted rain on the first day of summer never comes, meaning I can count on two things: my mother spending most of the morning in the garden, and Thom Froggett coming by the Sprinkle Shoppe for a double scoop of Rocky Road in a waffle cone.

3. Starry Eyes by Jenn Bennett

Spontaneity is overrated.

4. Rise of the Vicious Princess by C.J. Redwine

After tonight, the new hairstyle of Charis Willowthorn would be the only acceptable updo for a debutante to wear to a ball.

5. Portrait of a Thief by Grace D. Li

โ€œState your name for the record, please.โ€

6. Donโ€™t Forget Me by Judy Corry

Betting on my best friendโ€™s love life was getting expensive.

7. The Signs and Wonders of Tuna Rashad by Natasha Deen

The planets are in precise alignment, the moons are in their proper houses, and the auspicious signs canโ€™t be denied.

8. The Girl Who Fell Beneath the Sea by Axie Oh

The myths of my people say only a true bride of the Sea God can bring an end to his insatiable wrath.

9. Cinder & Glass by Melissa de la Cruz

I was meant to be listening to Claudine explain how best to pack for the move to Versailles.

10. The Song that Moves the Sun by Anna Bright

We begin at the center.

Did any of these first lines stick out to you?

I will admit, some of these were marvellous and some wereโ€ฆdifferent than what I anticipated the book to be. If you agree or disagree, let me know what you think!