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Let’s Talk Bookish – Quitting Blogging?

Aria @ Book Nook Bitsย will be the new host for Letโ€™s Talk Bookish! If you arenโ€™t following her yet, good check out her blog and give her a follow!

June 3: Have you ever considered quitting blogging?  (Kristin @ Lukten Av Trykksverte)

Prompts: Have your reasons for blogging changed since you started? If so, what changes have you noticed? Have you ever taken a break from blogging, or thought about it? Have you ever thought about quitting blogging entirely? What stops you? What gives you motivation to keep blogging?

Welcome to another week here of LTB at DTRH, everyone! Today’s topic is a little bit more sombre, but hey, it’s also part of the reality of anything we do. Can’t wait to hear why you all blog, and what drives you forward!

Personally, I really didn’t start that long ago (though the years do begin to fly by). However, the commitment isn’t really that huge, and the connection and structure that I get from co-maintaining this blog really adds a lot of value to my life, so that’s my main motivation for going on. In the beginning it was really just to kind of help Andge out, and to re-acquaint myself with the bookish world and to really start reading many books again, something that I had neglected to do during my undergraduate studies.

Nowadays, it’s much more for my own interest that I want to keep reading. It’s fun to work together with a co-host, and we each get more exposed to new things about the bookish community as we work together on this path, which I think is super exciting. I suppose it started off much more as “understudy” type of role, but I think I’ve really grown into it, much more like a true partnership nowadays, though I really do attribute most of the effort to Andge still!

We have never taken a break here at DTRH. Just kidding. If you’ve been following for some time, you’ll definitely have noticed where some unannounced hiatuses (hiati?) have crept in here and there. Though we have had a really good streak in the past year and a half! We take a break when we need it. Let’s face it, life can be overwhelming for so many reasons, and there’s no need to be tied down to something that isn’t helping your recovery. For those of you out there who also need a break, I highly recommend it, you won’t regret it. Your personal (physical and mental) health is so much more important and should never be taken for granted.

I can only speak for myself in motivation to keep going and not quitting, but really I wouldn’t be totally against quitting if there’s no longer an interest, or if blogging just becomes a huge chore. Hopefully (fingers crossed) it will never come to that, but really the community and also the chance to express yourself and keep track of the books you read are all the pros I need to keep going with this hobby. I know in my heart of hearts that if I need a break or if I can’t handle it, I can also just take a break! Which I think is basically what has happened so far.

Keep going if you want to keep going. This I definitely encourage. However, if you have any doubts, don’t be afraid to take breaks as well. It’s a hobby, after all. It’s supposed to be fun, and stimulating, and life-giving. If it’s just a bore or a drag and just getting you down all the time, maybe it’s time to revisit why you’re doing it in the first place. Can’t stress enough how much things should be adding value to your life in some way at least, and if it’s not, maybe it’s time to reconsider.

Do you agree? Why do you all blog? Are there any interesting reasons why you all do what you do? Let me know in the comments below!


1.5 star, adult

Review: Portrait of a Thief by Grace D. Li

History is told by the conquerors. Across the Western world, museums display the spoils of war, of conquest, of colonialism: priceless pieces of art looted from other countries, kept even now. 

Will Chen plans to steal them back.

A senior at Harvard, Will fits comfortably in his carefully curated roles: a perfect student, an art history major and sometimes artist, the eldest son who has always been his parentsโ€™ American Dream. But when a mysterious Chinese benefactor reaches out with an impossibleโ€”and illegalโ€”job offer, Will finds himself something else as well: the leader of a heist to steal back five priceless Chinese sculptures, looted from Beijing centuries ago. 

His crew is every heist archetype one can imagยญineโ€”or at least, the closest he can get. A con artist: Irene Chen, a public policy major at Duke who can talk her way out of anything. A thief: Daniel Liang, a premed student with steady hands just as capable of lockpicking as suturing. A getaway driver: Lily Wu, an engineering major who races cars in her free time. A hacker: Alex Huang, an MIT dropout turned Silicon Valley software engineer. Each member of his crew has their own complicated relationship with China and the identity theyโ€™ve cultivated as Chinese Americans, but when Will asks, none of them can turn him down. 

Because if they succeed? They earn fifty million dollarsโ€”and a chance to make history. But if they fail, it will mean not just the loss of everything theyโ€™ve dreamed for themselves but yet another thwarted atยญtempt to take back what colonialism has stolen.

Equal parts beautiful, thoughtful, and thrilling, Portrait of a Thiefis a cultural heist and an examination of Chinese American identity, as well as a necessary criยญtique of the lingering effects of colonialism.

Oceanโ€™s Eleven meets The Farewell in Portrait of a Thief, a lush, lyrical heist novel inspired by the true story of Chinese art vanishing from Western museums; about diaspora, the colonization of art, and the complexity of the Chinese American identity.



This is probably the saddest review I have to write because I had such high expectations for Portrait of a Thief. While I know this book may not have been written with every audience in mind, I feel I am one of those this was meant to excite. I feel I am one of those whose thoughts should hopefully matter as I navigate the complex feelings this book has sprung out of me.

I am Chinese Canadian and this book about the diaspora of Chinese immigrants across the Western world is, well, me.

Like most of the characters we follow in this heist crew, I was born in a Western society with only parental roots tying me back to my mother country. Yet my own complex relationship with China is not quite what any of these students feel. While many have praised the different voices or feelings each character wrestled with for their reasons to take on a heist job for China, I personally feel they were mostly one-note and the same. All their internal conflict, and oh boy was the book full of the same conflict for each character, was about escaping their prison-like futures weighed down with expectations and familial responsibilities, and not quite belonging to either country.

I can see that. I witness it sometimes in myself when Iโ€™m overseas and a person in China can immediately guess I am not from there simply from the way I dress and behave even if I speak Chinese to them. I also know that no matter I was born in Canada, people will see me and I will always be โ€˜otherโ€™ in some way, no matter that my English is perfect. But I donโ€™t think itโ€™s so simplified in the same way for every child of immigrants in this diaspora to feel so lost that it leads to the risk of a lifetime. I mean, the book wouldnโ€™t exist if they hadnโ€™t all felt drawn to such a risk worth taking, but it was hard to swallow after the 50th chapter mentioning the internal conflict in some form as they continued to take risk after risk to the point beyond recklessness for a country that also wasnโ€™t quite fully theirs either.

Out of the 5 protagonists, I resonated most closely with Alex. Note aside, she has the same name as one of my good friends so that was a fun thing to see in a book. But it makes me question a little why I connected with her the most. Is it because sheโ€™s the only one who is Cantonese with a background from Hong Kong?

This is another thing the book doesnโ€™t do well in. My family is from Hong Kong and it has a very different, even more complex, relationship with China. Itโ€™s probably another reason why I was so torn with the internal conflict of these students because itโ€™s never addressed although Alex is so very much here. Even with her last name written in this way, Huang instead of Wong, she couldโ€™ve just been another Mandarin-speaking student and I wouldnโ€™t have known the difference if her Cantonese family wasnโ€™t mentioned. Why is that? It makes me wonder why nothing more was ever specified. Why include it then at all? It adds to the similarity of all these students which donโ€™t represent the vast diaspora of Chinese immigrants. And I speak this from experience.

The story couldโ€™ve been saved with the levity that complex heists and creative escape plans might have brought with it. Yet this book is very much focused only on the identity struggle of the protagonists and not so much on the actual risks they are taking. It made the story drag as the heists were more an afterthought than any focus at all. I wouldnโ€™t have minded it, in fact, I was warned that was the case. But I needed the levity for my own heartโ€™s struggle and it just wasnโ€™t there. I could barely swallow several chapters at a time because it was so heavy, and each studentโ€™s grief over their future and their identity was so dominant. The chapters arenโ€™t even long yet I felt every one last half a lifetime.

The interpersonal relationships between all of them were also lacking. There were no feelings that jumped out of the page beyond what the words were telling me to feel. Will felt something that perhaps was more than his usual affair with Lily, but I never understood why that was. What made their interaction more special? Was it because they were planning a heist together with the added adrenaline thrown into the mix? The sapphic relationship also felt thrown out of left field because I never understood how it grew to love when all weโ€™ve ever been given was the hate. It wasnโ€™t even enemies-to-lovers done well.

And now we circle back to how I feel at the end of all of this. Portrait of a Thief was one of my most anticipated books, one I predicted I would love so much. It physically hurts that itโ€™s not the case because I thought this book was written for someone like me. On a subject that was important and meant to be seen. Maybe itโ€™s all too personal to me which is why it didnโ€™t work out. Maybe I have too many connections to the history, to the countries, to the struggle for it to have ever worked out.

Iโ€™m left with questions I can only reflect to myself as I read each charactersโ€™ own questions. Would I have risked it all for a country that doesnโ€™t fully accept me either? Would doing something as big as taking back power in the form of art be enough to make me belong? Iโ€™m not sure the answer is ever easy or so simple to make. It doesnโ€™t even have to relate to heists and art, but simply this question: what lengths would I go to to feel like I belong in the freedom of all that I am?

And the fact that these college students wrestled so much with their futures to want to run from it, and very great futures at that with the privilege of attending the greatest universities in America that only some of us can ever hope to achieve, made me wonder if thereโ€™s something off with me for never having such a thought cross my mind with the expectations placed on the eldest child of an immigrant family who left it all behind for a greater chance in a different country.

Yes, this review is very introspective, and itโ€™s not the usual take I have for books. But this book was written for me in many ways that most books are not. And perhaps the pain of not liking it at all is only amplified for that very reason.

Overall Recommendation:

Honestly, I canโ€™t write a good TL;DR for Portrait of a Thief. If you want to know my thoughts, please read the entirety of it because itโ€™s way too complex to put into a pithy summary. This is my history, this is my identity, and this book wrecked in me in a way I didnโ€™t expect it to.

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Anticipated Books Coming June 2022

Welcome to June everyone! Now that the weather is (too) rapidly warming up, it’s time for our next collection of anticipated reads coming up this month! We have tons of anticipated reads for you this month and as usual, I have linked their goodreads profile. Lucky for y’all, we also got a few of them ARC reviewed by Andge (also linked for you to check out!). Stay tuned for more, and happy June reading everyone!

June 7

This Place is Still Beautiful by Xixi Tian (ARC review here)
Forging Silver into Stars by Brigid Kemmerer
The Signs and Wonders of Tuna Rashad by Natasha Deen
Hell Followed With Us by Andrew Joseph White
We All Fall Down by Rose Szabo
Rise of the Snake Goddess (Samantha Knox #2) by Jenny Elder Moke

June 14

Rise of the Vicious Princess by C. J. Redwine (ARC Review here)
Love & Other Great Expectations by Becky Dean
The Silence that Binds Us by Joanna Ho

June 21

This Wicked Fate (This Poison Heart #2) by Kalynn Bayron

June 28

The Song that Moves the Sun by Anna Bright
A Secret Princess by Margaret Stohl & Melissa De la Cruz
This Vicious Grace by Emily Thiede
Blade Breaker (Realm Breaker #2) by Victoria Aveyard
Stealing Infinity by Alyson Noรซl
Our Crooked Hearts by Melissa Albert
Ride With Me by Lucy Keating
The Black Girls Left Standing by Juliana Goodman
The Dream Runners by Shveta Thakrar


And that’s a wrap everyone! Woof at that June 28 load though eh? Let us know if we’re missing any, and which you are looking most forward to in the comments below!